One Thing

Sometimes, what really gets to me is when Jay doesn't reach his milestones like my nephews and nieces. I sometimes have to remind myself that Jay will soon get there but at his own pace. Its hard sometimes when you know in your heart that he can do it all and sometimes its even discouraging when you see other children hitting their milestones so much faster. I know that Jay will get there and I know he will amount to greatness, his father likes to think he will be the first pro-skater with T21 and it just makes me happy to know that his dad knows he can amount to anything. I know I have to be patient when it comes to milestones and I know I shouldn't worry but its only natural to get excited and think he will do it at the same time. I need to take myself back a little and realize that although this is new to me, it is all new to Jay as well and as a mother and a support system I should always cheer him on and when he is ready he will be ready; he will amount to the same thing's as everyone else just at his own pace.

Back At It

Thing's are looking so good so far; Jay's therapist says he is doing so much better than some of the older kids that she takes care of. At the moment, Jay is learning how to sit. He has begun rolling around, turning himself, pushing himself forward while in the crawling position, and he has begun to acknowledge his body (playing and viewing his hands, as well as his feet). I'm very proud of the progress my little bean has made, it has made me so happy to see him progress at such a rapid rate. As well, Jay has become more alert more aware; seeing more than just faces but paying attention to colors and shapes. Olga (his therapist), has begun him on puree foods such as green beans, carrots, squash, etc.. even though his pediatrician said to wait, Olga said his motor muscles were ready to intake food as well as snacks (melting puffs). One thing that was a bit scary is he doesn't respond to his name, he will respond to loud noises but not the sound of his name. Olga, said he might have fluid in his ears since he gets sick a lot; although, this scares me very much because at the end of the day who knows how bad or mild it might be and what are the procedures they might have to take. It scares me because as a mom its hard to see your son have to deal with that- especially with him being so young and so small as well. I love him to death and even though this is a bump in the road his successes outshine it all. I know that Jay will get through it and will accomplish so much. I know GOD is on our side and I know he will pull us through. Other than that, his progress has been phenomenal.

Laughing Hard or Hardly Laughing

I'm so happy to say my little dumpling laughs so much more; I'm so in love with his smile, the sound of his laugh, and the way his little almond eyes slant. Jay is such a happy little bundle of love. I love him so much- he is such a chatter box but I guess he gets that from his papa and mama. Jay is so bright, so aware, very active, and joyous. My sister was right, you really don't know what unconditional love is until you have a child.

Take A Moment

I want to take a moment to thank God for every blessing and every burden! The Lord has allowed me to come this far with so little that I have had. Remember, God wouldn't put you through anything he didn't believe you couldn't handle! I've lost friends and I've lost love over the past year and I thank God for that. Not everything is meant to last forever. I haven't been the most perfect being and I've seen myself slip up-  but the Lord has shown me how to forgive myself abd most importantly others. I would be nothing without him and I wouldn't have come as far as I have without him. I was blessed with an amazing little soul whom I call my son, I was blessed with health, life, a beautiful struggle, and most of all faith. I am honored and blessed to know his word and from him I shall never stray. May I keep trying to walk down his narrow and righteous path. Blessed I am and blessed we all are for his love knows no bounds and is mercy is unconditional. I am grateful, I am humbled, I am blessed. THANK YOU POPPA IN THE SKY!

"For I know the plans I have for you declared the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a better future" -Jeremiah 29:11

A Letter to Jay

To have you as my son is the worlds biggest blessing. You will amount to things that are beyond your greatest dreams; never let anyone tell you otherwise. Your love knows no bounds and you have one of the most sweetest souls. You truly are a blessing from your poppa in the sky. Without you I wouldn't know what to do- it is because of you that I am who I am now and I achieved so much because you have motivated me to strive for the unimaginable. Thank you for giving me back a better version of the old me. You are my light, my life, my soul, my everything. I am forever indebted to the Lord. Don't ever let your courageous disability discourage you because T21 is just that- courageous. You're a Jewel and you're worth more than anything in this world. I love you, I adore you, and appreciate you more than you'll ever know. You blessed not only myself but our entire family. Far, far, far in the future (primero Dios) you're going to make an amazing big brother. You are an unbelievable son, cousin, nephew, and grandson. I will love you always.

Your mama

Jay's Therapy Session Today

Ah! I am so happy and so proud to say that all of Jay's hard work has been paying off! Olga (his therapist) says that although he has low muscle tone that she is so impressed on his progress. Jay has more head control and is acknowledging his hands and his feet; as well, he began to blow bubbles (well pretty much spit). Olga says that he's been doing so much better than some older kids she's been working but another therapy she knows he will need is speech therapy do to people with T21 having longer tounges than others. I am such a proud mama to see him doing so well and I am so happy to see him making so much progress. What an amazing feeling and what a blessing/honor to be able to see do so great. Forever blessed.

A Little Bit of This A Little Bit of That

I've decided to go back to school in June, for physical therapy. Jay will be six months in the next two months and he'll be able to eat actual baby food so he won't fully rely on breast feeding anymore. I'm actually very excited but very nervous at the same time. I decided on Physical Therapy since Jay might need one some day- plus I want to be able to work wit children with other disabilities as well. I feel so proud and extremely excited to do so because I love going to school. I was previously going to school for Fashion Marketing and Management to become a runway coordinator but then financial aid messed it all up! I'm just looking forward to all the thing's that are to come in Jay and I's future. I do believe it will all begin to look up. Like I've said before, Jay has inspired me and motivated me to want and do so much out of life. I can't wait to begin classes and I can't wait for bigger and better thing's. I am ever so blessed and grateful to God for all he has given me and blessed us with.