Laughing Hard or Hardly Laughing

I'm so happy to say my little dumpling laughs so much more; I'm so in love with his smile, the sound of his laugh, and the way his little almond eyes slant. Jay is such a happy little bundle of love. I love him so much- he is such a chatter box but I guess he gets that from his papa and mama. Jay is so bright, so aware, very active, and joyous. My sister was right, you really don't know what unconditional love is until you have a child.

Take A Moment

I want to take a moment to thank God for every blessing and every burden! The Lord has allowed me to come this far with so little that I have had. Remember, God wouldn't put you through anything he didn't believe you couldn't handle! I've lost friends and I've lost love over the past year and I thank God for that. Not everything is meant to last forever. I haven't been the most perfect being and I've seen myself slip up-  but the Lord has shown me how to forgive myself abd most importantly others. I would be nothing without him and I wouldn't have come as far as I have without him. I was blessed with an amazing little soul whom I call my son, I was blessed with health, life, a beautiful struggle, and most of all faith. I am honored and blessed to know his word and from him I shall never stray. May I keep trying to walk down his narrow and righteous path. Blessed I am and blessed we all are for his love knows no bounds and is mercy is unconditional. I am grateful, I am humbled, I am blessed. THANK YOU POPPA IN THE SKY!

"For I know the plans I have for you declared the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a better future" -Jeremiah 29:11

A Letter to Jay

To have you as my son is the worlds biggest blessing. You will amount to things that are beyond your greatest dreams; never let anyone tell you otherwise. Your love knows no bounds and you have one of the most sweetest souls. You truly are a blessing from your poppa in the sky. Without you I wouldn't know what to do- it is because of you that I am who I am now and I achieved so much because you have motivated me to strive for the unimaginable. Thank you for giving me back a better version of the old me. You are my light, my life, my soul, my everything. I am forever indebted to the Lord. Don't ever let your courageous disability discourage you because T21 is just that- courageous. You're a Jewel and you're worth more than anything in this world. I love you, I adore you, and appreciate you more than you'll ever know. You blessed not only myself but our entire family. Far, far, far in the future (primero Dios) you're going to make an amazing big brother. You are an unbelievable son, cousin, nephew, and grandson. I will love you always.

Your mama